So.... I'm feeling much better about this whole back to work thing. Today when I was on the skytrain coming home and three separate whackos got on and off the train whilst yelling at other passengers, pacing skittishly and sleeping with an unlit smoke in their mouth,* I had an epiphany about going back to work and who I surround myself with on a daily basis. Becasue really, when it comes down to it- I love the spinning, the rat race, the night life (I like to boogy). I love my job, my family, friends etc. But when I was at home I had choices. Choices of who I wanted to see each day (minus Lily - but she doesn't count) or if I wanted to see anyone at all. So naturally, I surrounded myself with people I really like and admire and respect. And for the most part, I was completely stress free and happy (but a little bored).
So now - back at work, I don't have that option. A few of the people I see 20+ hours a week at work are not people I would choose to call up to go for a walk to get a slurpee or browse an antique mall. (some of them I would, however). Just like how I did NOT want to spend a minute with those folks on the train - yet I was stuck with them for 40 minutes.
It's all so complicated and strategic after a babe is born. But worth it...
L
*At one point they all starting interacting - all tripping out on different poisons (heroin, meth and booze). Felt like I was in an episode of Intervention.
L
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